Well do you? Wait, answer that question in your head and if you like me that much you can tell me later. The reason I ask that is because I was in a pretty miserable mood; dad in such, the usual. However I just had to think about how much I care about others opinions, realized that I don't care (surprisingly when I was thinking about that I was listening to I Don't Care so kudos to Chris)about others opinions on me and just have to make sure I make me work for me. I know at times I'm lets face it, an asshole, but then again who isn't. I can also have a self loathing complex which just fucks me over sometimes. But when I comes down to it, I love being me because no one will ever mistake me for someone else, because I'm 100% in tune with who I am. just think about it, so many other people are always worried who's looking at them, what they look like, and who they can impress. My friends as well as I have come to terms with this and even though we might have the best positions in life we'll probably live a whole hell of a lot better then the rest of the vain pieces of shit out there. This just reminded me of something I saw, a Katt Williams stand up in which he said "You have to be in tune with yo star mutha fuck'in player". Your star player being you of course. you know what, he's right.
Which brings me to a good example, Mandie. Sure we know shes out there, but shes fine with the world shes created and has found happiness in that. So why do we care so much? I don't have an answer for you on that, but I'm sure you have an answer for yourself.
I said a while ago that "I'm in love with love". I never truly said why I felt that way. Well it was because I felt good about myself and I think if I can feel good about myself then I can feel good about falling in love again. But that's just me getting over my own defence mechanism after I let myself get tied up in something I never should have gotten into in the first place, oh well thats life for you.
