1. Moving
I'm supposed to be in North Carolina right now but once again, my family says were going to move, nothing happens. This shit has been going om for years and at this point I'm about to say screw it and go live in a box filled with packing peanuts. I actually feel like an asshole showing up to work day after day, week after week of saying I', gonna be gone and I'm still here. I haven't told anyone else this, but you the viewer get to find out a secret! Because I think, nay, know where moving this time (though I still don't know when) I've been trying to detach myself from the guys. That's why people really haven't seen me. That's why I just go home after work. It's not like I don't have the heart to tell people straight up, it's just hard for me to accept that I'm not going to see everyone for two years plus. So I'm just easing into my solitude little by little until the day comes.
2. P......S.......3!!!!!!!
I just got it last week and I have to say, it's everything I could want in a gaming council (for now). I brought it for 200.00 flat. Nothings wrong with it I assure you. It is the "George Foreman" PS3 not the slim which just came out. When I posted that I got a PS3 on Facebook Steve said he hoped to god I didn't get a slim; and if I did? Oh no! I've done some research on the subject and the only major difference (besides the fact that it's smaller) is that it had a slightly lower quality blu-ray player. Oh no! I would have wasted all my money getting a stupid PS3 "slim" because of a lower quality, high end product. Like I really give a shit. If it plays the games I'm happy.
3. Just because
Here is a "journal" entry from a few days ago.
Sunday September 20, 2009
2:07
So, umm hi…. Haven’t seen you around lately… Where the fuck have you been!? You know what, I don’t care. All that matters is you’re back now. So it’s been a few months sue me. Life has been a bit on the uneventful side. Sure stuff has happened but it really hasn’t been worth mentioning and I really won’t care about remembering it in the future. What has happened though is we are supposed to be moving, again. Honestly it’s the single most depressing thing in my life right now. I really just want to leave and get started with my life however, that doesn’t seem to be the case. At every turn we are inconvenienced once more. It’s getting to the point where I just want to quit my job out of pure embarrassment. Eh, fuck that, I need to make money. As for the guys, everyone is pretty much the same except for Steve. He has become an acquaintance at best and we really don’t try to hang out or talk to him anymore. As for Catherine, she’s become lazy and unmotivated, and is for the most part a spoiled bitch of a suburbanite. The weirdest yet is actually, Stephanie. She has become so sweet in the past few months, she’s even better than I remember her from her high school years. Then there was the night a few weeks ago she gave me a really long hug. It was really (and I mean really) unexpected, but greatly welcomed. I needed a hug as much as she did. Makes me wish she was around more often, I could use a hug about once a week.
Break Time!
Fully equipped with a crowbar, dried food, and a scapegoat in case you fuck up.
4. Last thing for now!
The Dream of Thursday September 24, 2009
“We” were in a car Steve was driving, looking for a JJ’s Chicken and Fish on Capitol. Steve went around a corner and rolled into a parking lot and said “were not going to find one around here”. I pointed out that there was one to our immediate left. Frustrated Steve didn’t park and he got out of the car along with “everyone” else. But I protested that he should find a parking spot, lest we get caught by someone. He didn’t listen so I stayed by the car. Sure enough a cop/security officer rolls up and asks about the car. I told her that the owner would be right back, so she waits there with me, in silence. When Steve gets back to the car I go inside and tell the guys what went down. Soon after Steve comes in pissed off and says “She took my keys!” At that point I said I would get Steve’s keys back for him and went outside to talk to the officer. She explained to me Steve’s behavior and told me she confiscated his keys because of his attitude. I told her we needed to go home and unfortunately he was our only ride. I apologized for Steve and told her sorry for the trouble we caused. She thanked me for my honesty and handed me the keys back. As she handed me the keys she also gave me a kiss on the cheek. I locked eye with her for what felt like 30 seconds, but in actuality was about 3. I grabbed her and kissed her. She didn’t pull back; in fact she was kissing me back. After that I tried to apologize for what I just done, but she just put her fingers over my mouth and told me that it was ok. Needless to say I was pretty embarrassed, but she was ok with it so I introduced myself. She told me her name was Sandra and I said, “Well Sandra you wouldn’t mind if I asked you for your phone number would you?” Just as she was about to give it to me those guys came out of JJ’s and asked what was going on. I didn’t say anything at first; I just waited until Steve caught up and I tossed him his keys and told him he should have listened to me. However, in all reality I was so fucking glad he didn’t. She said she needed me to go with her to fill out an incident report. I got in the car with her and bid farewell to the guys and departed from the restaurant. We ended up back at her place after driving around and chatting all night. She lives on a huge hill, almost at the top, in a white two story house with brown trimming and a built in garage. I waited in her back yard, which could over look the whole hill and watched the sun rise. She came out wearing a white dress with light yellow flowers spiraling down it in a pattern. I asked her if she was tired and she said she has problems sleeping and she normally come out here to watch the sunrise. I was shocked that she was like me! After some more chat in which I found out she was a gamer too, I asked for her number once more and as she was giving it to me I came out of my dream. I hate myself for waking up then. Some mornings I just wish I could stay asleep forever. Because within my mind is the most peaceful place on this Earth. I actually can’t remember my last night nightmare, now that I think of it I don’t think I’ve ever had I nightmare in my life.
Boy do I need a fucking girlfriend, right?
Well that's all you're getting out of me for now, until next time...
